Christmas Is Here!

Christmas is here!!! I can't believe how fast this year has gone by. My kids are super excited about Christmas, because they got their presents in from my dad and camellia today.


Our plans for Christmas begin Christmas Day, I will be getting up Christmas morning and putting all their presents under the tree from us, my dad and Santa Claus for the kids. I will fill their stockings, then we will all get up and get ready for the day, then we will wait for Matthew to come home so we can go to his mom's house to celebrate.


I'm super excited to be spending time with family, granted mine won't be down here, it's still great to have family to spend the holidays with. I'm very happy for my sister and her husband Nick who are expecting their 3rd child, Congrats to y'all and I hope y'all have a very Merry Christmas.


I enjoy the holidays very much so, but I really missed how we would all be at grandma and grandpa's house with the cooking, presents, and family time. Those memories are so precious and are some of the best memories of my life. My grandparents were the most amazing grandparents you could ever asked for. I wish they were still here! I wish they could know Thomas and Brooke's personalities. But I know that one day my kids will meet them. Anyways, I need to finish cleaning house. I hope everyone has a safe and Merry Christmas!!!

Thanksgiving Excitement

I can't believe that it's gonna be Thanksgiving in three days. This year has gone by soooo fast. I can't even believe how much my kids have grown and become such great kids. We have three birthdays coming up as well.


Matthew will be home thursday which means we will be cooking at his mom's house for the 3rd year in a row. We already have everything we need for Thanksgiving. I start buying for Thanksgiving in October since we have so many people we are feeding. I love how the holidays bring family together.


Some of my best memories with my family are the holidays, grandma and grandpa cooking dinner for everyone all day long, the smell of the house, and just having family there. There were alot of great memories during the holidays. I miss our family getting together and being close like we used to be. Now we are all married, getting married, and have our own cooking to do. I just wish we could all get together one more time. I miss grandma and grandpa's cooking, it was always a very delicious meal.


After thanksgiving we will be getting to celebrate Brooklyn's 2nd birthday on the 30th. I'm so excited about her cake it's gonna be awesome. Rayna's theme is lavender and zebra and yes tinkerbell, Brooklyn's theme is hot pink and cheetah, and Thomas's theme is Ninja Turtles. I already have her cake ordered and I'm very excited about it. It's gonna be beautiful.


I hope everyone has a very Happy Thanksgiving!! Enjoy family because they are always there for you no matter what!!

Halloween

I have to say Halloween was awesome. My kids got to go trick-or-treating for the first time ever. My kids were dressed up as a fairy, captain america, and a zebra cutie. They looked adorable and they did soo good. I was a very proud mama. They said please and thank you and I got so many compliments about their manners. I love when people give compliments on my kids, it makes me feel like all my hard work is paying off. My kids are my whole world and to see them sooo happy and having fun made my night even better.


It brought back so many memories for me. Bethany drove my car while I walked with my kids. It reminded me of when my sister and I would go trick-or-treating when we were younger. We would go to fritch the night before Halloween for trick-or-treating and grandpa would drive the car while we would trick-or-treat with our dad walking with us or another family member. I came home that night soo happy and I cried because I miss my grandpa and wish he could see how much my kids have grown and wish he could enjoy them.


They came home with bags full of candy. We went to the ranching center, then came home and walked down our street, then half of another block and they had their bags completely full of candy. I was like omg this reminds me of when I was a kid. People in our neighborhood are very nice and keep to themselves. I love that everyone keeps to themselves, and they don't give us hell about our dog or the fact that I blast my music while cleaning. It's so nice to actually have a house.


Once I figure out how to add pictures on here I can post some from Halloween.

Abortion

Well first of all, I am writing this abortion post to get my views out there. I do agree with my sisters first three reasons but not her last. She gave the me the strength to be brave and write this post. I have a different perspective about abortion. I am pro choice and here's why:


My reasons abortion is a option are


1. The pregnancy is a product of rape/incest.


2. There is no chance of survival for the baby.


3. The pregnancy puts the mothers life in danger that can result in the mothers death.


Now my sisters fourth reason is if the mother has a mental illness that makes her an unfit mother, which I strongly disagree with. There is always adoption for those babies.


I was talking to my sister in law and I asked her if she was pro-life or pro-choice. She replied " Prolife, I'm 100% against abortions." I told her "that's good."


She then said "I feel if the parents are old enough to have sex, there old enough to be parents. It's not the babies fault, especially when there are women who can't have kids and would love to be a mommy." I do agree with her statement because I feel that way too. Unless one of my three reasons above is the case for that pregnancy.


If you agreed with any of those three reasons above, your pro-choice as well.

Suffering From PPD

Suffering from postpartum depression really sucks, it doesn't just affect you. It also affects your family. What's worse, is you can't control it. I have been having an extremely hard time with this since my last baby. I'm still not really sure how to deal with it. If anyone has any advice feel free to email me. It has definately had a negative effect on my relationship with my husband.


My poor husband has to deal with me not being me at times, he deals with all the anger, depression, sadness, the guilt I feel. He deals with everything.


My husband Matthew does everything he can to help me out as much as possible when he's home. He's a amazing husband and is always there for me no matter what. I love him so much, he's definately my rock in my times of weakness.


Although I'm sure at times, he has no clue what to do or how to make things better. He always finds a way. I'm so lucky to have the husband I do. Matthew is the best husband I could have ever asked for. He deals with all the crap I put him through and he still loves me.


I love how he makes me feel better. I'm also thankful for my mother in law. She also understands what I'm going through because she's been there. I'm not on medication by choice, however I might need them. I hate to admit I'm not myself, I just want to hide it and pretend it doesn't exist. But the more I pretend its not there, it always shows up.


Its good to have an amazingly supportive husband and very dedicated father to be there for you and your children. Hands down I have the best man in world whether you think so or not. I fall in love with him more and more each day.


PPD is a constant battle, that I will overcome, but until I do. I'm thankful for the people I have who are always there for me no matter what.


Feel free to contact me for advice, about any questions you have or anything. Ill touch up on the PPD later on and let y'all know how I'm doing with it.

Starting Over Again

Ok so yes I deleted everything from my blog. It was for a good reason. I got tired of people trying to look in on me when they don't like me.


I'm a 25 year old woman who is married and has kids. I don't deal with any drama or bullshit. I have grown up and matured a lot. I have also learned a lot about life in general. Don't start shit when you don't even know me.


I'm a mother and wife who is very happy with her life right now, we finally have a three bedroom two bath house with a awesome 2 car garage and a fenced backyard. It's a beautiful home and will do for now until we find something better. I'm couldn't be more happy right now in my life.


I just don't understand how people can sit there and be like "I hate her, she's the biggest bitch you will ever met". I am if you mess with my family, kids, or husband. That is the only time I am a bitch.


But anyways my blog is officially back up for all you readers to read. And if you don't like what I write or what I have to say. Then please don't read it. I write my views, my opinions, my experiences, my thoughts, and overall about my life. If you don't like what you read then don't read it.